When It Seems So Hard To Trust.

To Trust . . .

It seems easy and can be hard.

It seems hard and can be easy.

I choose to trust. I made that promise that I would.

It seems easy but it is so hard at times.

Seven and half months ago, I walked into a hospital, received some of the worse kind of news a mother could hear and I chose to trust and to believe.

I trusted and believed in the One but it didn't make the outcome different.

Now, for me, trusting is hard because I know.

I know that to trust doesn't mean that all of your dreams come true.

I know that to trust doesn't mean that you get what you want.

I know that to trust doesn't free you from pain.

It is a hard and an easy thing to trust in the Maker. It is hard when you have had a child, a dream, a miracle die in your arms.

It is easy when you have learned that He is enough.

It used to be an easy thing for me to say that I trust my loved ones in His hands.

But now? I know to trust means that His plan prevails. I know that when my husband is lost in the clouds, the wind could be lost under wings and he would not return home. I know that children don't always out live their parents. I know to trust doesn't free you from a painless life.

I still choose to trust. 

I trust because, despite this pain, I have learned that He is enough.

I do not know what life has in store for me, and to be honest, I am sometimes fearful of that. But then I turn toward the heavens and declare that I trust that He is enough.



















Stephanie