After yesterdays little venting post, I felt like I received a gentle reminder when I hopped over to Lisa Jo's Blog and saw the topic for today. Funny how life works like that sometimes.
Today's Topic: Opportunity
Yesterday I was feeling overwhelmed, stressed, frustrated, under-appreciated and not worthy. I feel like society puts a lot of importance on Mother's who work outside of the home and undervalues those who don't. I admit, I'm a little stuck in that mind frame as well even though I've been staying at home with my three year old for a year now.
I feel like I am constantly fielding questions about what I do all day and how could I be tired when I don't have to go to work everyday. So, I try not to complain or vent when I am around working moms. However, I do envy them a little bit. They are able to leave the house and go somewhere for a set number of hours for the day without their child. They get to escape the chaos of the house. I feel like I am constantly submerged in it. The chaos is always staring me down.
I can tell you this and I think rather fairly since I have also been a working mom, I am more exhausted and feel like I do so much more in a day then I ever did working a 12 hour shift in the NICU.
I was venting yesterday. I was wanting a job outside of the house . . .
And then, today, I saw one single word - opportunity - and I felt revived.
Isn't that what life is full of but we are so busy to take notice sometimes?
I have this amazing opportunity to stay-at-home with my daughter during these primitive years. I get that privilege. I know some women don't have the choice and they would love nothing more than to stay at home. I will try not to complain anymore.
I have this amazing opportunity to be the one to instill values and integrity in my daughter. I know what she has learned and experienced. I get to be the one to teach her and show her the world.
And I get to witness her being in awe of it all.
I think that's pretty amazing.
I think all I needed was a new set of glasses to reset my vision.
I have the opportunity to stay at home with my child and while that brings a sometimes overwhelming responsibility, it is always a once and a life-time experience.
I won't get these moments back. They are all too fleeting . . .