Friday, February 10, 2012

When It Seems So Hard To Trust.

To Trust . . .

It seems easy and can be hard.

It seems hard and can be easy.

I choose to trust. I made that promise that I would.

It seems easy but it is so hard at times.

Seven and half months ago, I walked into a hospital, received some of the worse kind of news a mother could hear and I chose to trust and to believe.

I trusted and believed in the One but it didn't make the outcome different.

Now, for me, trusting is hard because I know.

I know that to trust doesn't mean that all of your dreams come true.

I know that to trust doesn't mean that you get what you want.

I know that to trust doesn't free you from pain.

It is a hard and an easy thing to trust in the Maker. It is hard when you have had a child, a dream, a miracle die in your arms.

It is easy when you have learned that He is enough.

It used to be an easy thing for me to say that I trust my loved ones in His hands.

But now? I know to trust means that His plan prevails. I know that when my husband is lost in the clouds, the wind could be lost under wings and he would not return home. I know that children don't always out live their parents. I know to trust doesn't free you from a painless life.

I still choose to trust. 

I trust because, despite this pain, I have learned that He is enough.

I do not know what life has in store for me, and to be honest, I am sometimes fearful of that. But then I turn toward the heavens and declare that I trust that He is enough.



  1. This is beautiful. Your blog is beautiful. Also, I read a woman's blog who lost her twin girls in August. I'm not sure if it was TTTS, but I thought I would pass it along.

  2. Thank you for your example of CHOOSING trust. What a beautiful testimony.

  3. Your post really touched me. All we can do is trust. We know that He holds tomorrow in His hands!!! One of my favorite scriptures is: "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding" Proverbs 3:5 and it goes on to say in verse 6: In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. These two verses are very powerful. It is so hard when we are in the valley to trust but God still remains faithful!!!

  4. i can not imagine going thru what you have, the fact that you can trust is amazing to me. what a blessing you are to those who read your words.



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