In the last three years, she has changed. A. LOT.
She went from rolling, to crawling, to pulling up, to walking.
She went from cooing, to babbling, to uttering one word, to forming sentences and then conversations.
She will never again be that six pound bundle. She will never again be what she is today.
She is ever changing.
And so I am.
People have made statements like, you'll start feeling like your old-self again. It will just take some time.
My old-self?
Who was that? How do I find her again? Do I want to?
How can your life completely change but not you?
When you uttered an anguished sob of a goodbye, a goodbye that no mother should ever have to say, how do you not become someone completely different?
My old-self? She's gone.
I have a new-self. I am a new me.
Ever changing just like that six pound bundle I was blessed to welcome into the world.
Linking up today for a Five-Minute Friday with Lisa-Jo.
Stephanie
Such a cute post, bless you.
ReplyDeletethanks for jumping over to my space for 5mF. I have read your blog before and remembered about your girls. I'm so sorry. My daughter was paralyzed in a matter of hours and hadn't ever been seriously ill before. So in that, I have had to learn to take it one day at a time...plans, schmans right. lol hugs dear girl!
ReplyDeleteStopping by from Five Minute Friday link-up...
ReplyDeleteThis post was beautifully written; as changes come, we change because the Lord is changing us through them.
I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of your girls, but I'm blessed by your openness in sharing of your journey to healing.
Glad I came across your blog...I'll be reading along from now on! =)
Stephanie,
ReplyDeleteThis was such a touching post. Thank you for sharing. I'm so sorry that your life was changed in such an unfair way. I'm sorry you have had to endure the loss of your girls. I love the quote on the graphic you used here. I have this thing with butterflies...how through the three miscarriages I went through in one year, God took me into a cacoon, He sent me on a transforming journey and by His healing, I came out with wings. Hugs & blessings to you!